Kara,
Thank you for visiting me in my dreams over the weekend. It was nice to see your smiling face again. We didn’t say much to each other.. we just gave each other the longest hug and then walked on. I know we weren’t close, but we were friends. Sadly, you passed on my birthday. I didn’t know about anything until the next day from Kathy. You were so young and had so much ahead of you. I’m married now and have a 2 year old daughter..things I won’t ever take for granted now with this lesson learned. Diane came to my wedding and she said you were supposed to come with her. I wish you could have came. One day, we’ll all be reunited, but until then I hope you’re still smiling over us and happy. We all love and miss you. Visit any time.. my hugs are unlimited. : )

Hello Kara,

Got to see you again last night. Finally! Still pretty fuzzy but I just remember we were selling t-shirts and you were making me laugh. Don’t know if you were visiting me or if I was just dreaming, but I’m glad I got to share another good laugh with you. Miss you!

Love,

Neil-Denny

A doctor yelled at me the other morning. It ruined my day but on my way home from work, I thought of you and I said to myself.. “he bettaaa aKssssomebodaaay!!!”

BTW, I posted this pic from your charity event. It’s incomplete without you in it. I’m sure Al agrees, look at her face

Miss you Kara.

Remember meeting Sam for the first time? Fun times. Miss ya.

Hey Again K…

I see no one has written in here in a while, but I am sure that we all miss you. There isn’t a day that goes by that we don’t think about or miss you like crazy. It’s not uncommon for us to randomly break out into tears.

The weather has been really hot lately. I froze a water bottle and thought of you. I remember when we used to work at KK and I’d look into the freezer and see a bunch of water bottles in there taking up all the space. They all turned out to be yours. You never liked warm water..it wasn’t your style. See, little things will randomly remind me of you. I’m sure this happens to a lot of people. You still greatly affect me K.

As you know, your 40th day celebration went really well. It was a success and you were definitely there partying with us. It was all for you. I know you were looking down and laughing about how much drunk fun people were having.

I still struggle with that fact that you can’t be here physically with us anymore. Every day is different, but that’s life and that’s what moving on is all about. It’s unpredictable. These are your own words of wisdom and hopefully people can take something from it: “I guess things really do happen for a reason and I hope we can all understand it, adapt to it, and grow from it. We hurt because we are learning.” Well K, I’ve definitely learned so much more since you left us, and yes, it still hurts. One day I will understand, I know I will.

Love you. Miss you always. Goodnight Kara.

Dear Ate Kara,

Where do I start? I miss you so much and I really wish you were still here.Even though you and me weren’t the closest we could be, you still cross my mind way more than once a day. Losing you in our lives has taught me a lot, and honestly, it made me realize a lot of things. Even though you arent here anymore, i feel like you are guiding me through life in a way. I know you know that me and my mom don’t get along, but ever since you left, I am really trying to be nice to her. I don’t wanna take anyone in my life for granted anymore because they could be gone in a flash. You might not be here with us anymore, but I know that your memory will always live. We love you so much and the few memories I have with you will last a lifetime. You are a role model for the rest of us to live our lives to the fullest and be all that we can be. I love you so much Ate, by the way, your poem is my favorite poem now and I am going to hang it on my wall. Watch over the rest of us ma (;

KARA!! I was waiting for this picture at my grad party from my dad so I could finally write in here. It’s a good portrayal of us, except the fact that we’re not both drunk! I’m so happy you were there to celebrate with me, my family, and friends just a couple days before God called you to heaven, it was such a blessing that way.

I know you’ve passed peacefully, but I’m with Len when she said that it’s hard to accept that you’re not physically here. But then spiritually you are EVERYWHERE love. In my dreams you always talk to me through my cell phone. I don’t know if that’s because you know I’m always on it, or because I didn’t see you much and all we had was texting/calling when I was up at school, but either way we’re always talking through my phone in my dreams. Also Eric is always there, I take that as you telling us that you don’t hate him like he thinks you do! Haha.

Since you’re so impatient with people lagging to IM/text/call/email back right away I’ve been antsy waiting for you to text me back! But then again I’m not really sure if I’ll be freaked out or not. Last night at dinner I told everyone that I wanted you to visit more obviously as long as I wasn’t alone and damn you are quick with the response time because you visited through Aidan today.

Today the craziest thing happened as I drove Keilana and Aidan home from the beach. Out of no where Aidan asks, “Do you still know your friend Kara?” I answer, “Yes,” and he asks, “How come I don’t see her face around anymore?” Oh my gosh Kara I tried so hard not to cry in front of the kids while I drove! He just caught me soo off guard and he’s 7 years old for crying out loud!! Anyway, I respond by explaining that you’re in heaven now and he asks, “Do you have pictures of her? Can I see them when we get to your house?” You WOULD visit Aidan (aka Beowulf to you and Marj) since he’s beasty like that, but dude it freaked me out!! I showed him the picture of you and him at my aunt’s bday party last November and he remembered that day!

I’ve heard so many stories of your visits to people and I’m not surprised at how you’ve made time for EVERYONE in your life! You have set such a great example for the rest of us here on Earth and I truly feel like I have an Angel watching over me. I miss you sooo much Kara, I don’t ever want you to stop visiting, even though I know you have other things to do up there. I hope you and Michael are friends now. I’m sure he’d be flattered by your jazz solo to his song. Please choreograph a duo together and youtube it via my dreams!! I know it’s a lot to ask, but I know you’re trying to show the other angels that you got some moves!

Laur and I spent part of our Vegas trip reminiscing about you at a random Starbucks in MGM. You better believe that we drank you to you. I actually drank too much for you, but when I think of you I always think about how you’re so down. You always go hard and you make the most of every situation and I keep you in mind whenever I start complaining about being tired or not having time. Thank you for showing me that one person can do so much and make such a difference in other people’s lives with even the smallest gestures.

There’s so much more I want to tell you, just little things that happen day to day, but I know you know the things I want to share. I just want to hear your voice and your reactions. I miss laying in your bed and talking all night. “No Dike.” Haha. (That phrase is still not happening btw!) But for real, I miss your laugh. The inhabitants of heaven are lucky they get to hear it! Take care up there.

I love you,

Chris